confuse

Why?  I don't understand myself.
It is sure i like to chat him.  But why i can't respond much although he explain many things.

Ahaha i didn't know whats wrong with me. Not care.  Not care means care. Aiish, my mind feel so empty. Okay,  finish it.  Take care later.

Not care,
Not care,
Once again,  not care.

And theres something whose confusing.. Hmm, why i was so cocky about feeling.  Hahaha what a terrible person i am. Or maybe everyone like this. 😂😂

heart

Theres something that i was confused.  Its bout the beat of myheart. At first,  i was worried because i never felt it before.  Beat so hard.  But,  thankfully,  its solved itself. I tried to calm down it.  But maybe this quote will help me.

i expect strong, but...

Today,  i am so freaking limp,  but at the same time i am bored.  Thats why i write this.

Its been three days i was not in good condition,  my parent concern bout my health so that why they easily said i should stop my tiredness.  Buut..  Where am i going to start new journey??..

Future is like mystery..

i was in situation "thinking"

This midnight,  i wanna write for along time,  but can't..  So,  today,  its satuday..  From yesterday why i became a gloomy person,  maybe i was too tired,  huh?  What gonna i will be?  Any,,  for the rest the journey of life i have been survived..  I realize,  when we at this age,  when we already have money but don't have time.. Our meeting that we arrangement not always successful. My goal to go around the world still far away..

Ajik moella,  what pain is it,  what suffer is it,  what i really want,  ajik moella,,  but be sure,  human's journey is something that i should be bless of. I already left my youth insyaAllah with no regret. Previously, i swipe all my youth picture. Aaah, like this. Oh this is what i did, and this is picture of my old friend. Story is story. Story of mine. Unfotunately, my love story. That is full of tears bcz i can't tell the truth. Became so childish. And keep my ego. Yeah, i can't be so sure bout word that i sayin. So i think i am not really smart. Why i always playin words. Sayin harsh thing. Aihs, and why i can't keep my argument and always understand. Can't hurt the others. But until i at home, i thinking because i can't tell what i want tell. I hope smile will be my blurry image as forgiven of myself.

Really, i know my glare was changing bcse what happened to me. Theres something that can be predicted. Always and always. This is me who will give up bout hoping you back. Everyday is fight. Ya Allah, always protect my eyes and my every single step.  You know what better i will be. Someday,  someday theres a way.

Sincerely,
Afifah

story telling about my things

January 28th, 2017

haha what i am gonna write :) first intentionally going to say hello to you all, 아녕 하세요. こんばんは  😁

okay, i was already 23 years old, ah already? dont thinking to much its something you should keep going on. i am not good at anything. maybe its just my negative thinking. oh so lunatic.

seems so many picture in my phone, loading, i wanna show you my important things.

1, My Laptop (Sony, Vaio)

i bought it when first or second semester i became college student, at that time, my financial family not to good enough for bought it even when i want to pay my entry tuition fee its my father must borrow from others. But my father want his child got this thing so he bought it with condition i should pay back slowly cz i already take teach private. Its okay i was so happy since that. I chose vaio this with recomended from the sales. The color is pink like cherry blossom and its easy to bring for person like i am, tiny. hehe. i brought it at home. But, seems my brother dissapointed cz he understand laptop althougt he use it to, i mean he actually have different laptop with the same brand. And its true. not so long from i bought it. this laptop withdrawn from sale. i don't know why. Then, suddenly my laptop turn off when we, i and my moms use it not too much its suddenly turn off. Fortunately, still have warranty, so i and my father visited the shop. Huh, i should waited for a long time. Maybe its intentionally because the warranty only one year and the repaires need three month if i was not wrong. Okay after that, my battery can only survived about thirty minutes. Until i use it for my thesis i only can survived thirty minutes when theres no stopcontact. But after i finish my thesis, i just use it for make a CV. After i got a job,i am not use it anymore. i was more into handphone theseday.

But now, i use it. and the condition seems sick. i mean, its should always charge and the link between keyboard and screen is frangible. oh i was too lazy to bring you to hospital dear, you should hold on. and i shouldn't to waste money. Oh ya Allah, keep always help me and hold my hands. Because you know so well i easily crying.

Okay, I write it together with my Puss, we only both at home. Oh the others seems so busy. NoPe. The other this is my Handphone.

2. My Handphone (Before Sony Experia, Now Asus Zenfone 5)

I bought Asus because My SonEx suddenly turn off. Back then,  I was favourited SonEx so much but the destiny said different haha duh illeh.. When its turn off, sony and experia not become couple again. the company decided to walk each other. So it is me who need different handphone too decided switch to Asus who at that time has many spect proud of. Not enough, i try to repair my old phone but its can repaired althougth it already three month not use phone and even i should lose my chance to do last exam because of i lost contact. And finally, because it actually really urgent, i bought Asus Zenfone 5 via Lazada. And its FAST. Haha I was so happy. Its expensive thing that i could efforted buy with my money. Still, its my saved money to achieve my dream place. Its okay, maybe it about the time to go there. Even i dont know it will became futile or useless. 

Back to the topic, Nowadays, Asus keep accompany me, and doing all good things. Okay, its quite regretable because of technology advances. My phone can't has 4G signal. haha NoPe.

Ah i am so hungry, i will continue it later.