From elementeray school, i always have my own diary, do you know why? because i can't express my desire, i'll make wrong expression. so day by day. i really felt sorry, for i want to say, but i didn't say it. i know it's make me be a dissapointed person. hard to believe to be ourself, i try to make confident. be patient person is my wish but i can't control myself, it sick if you waiting someone, it sick if you didn't get your desire, it sick if you really make somebody happy but you can't do it, it sick if you always hurt yourself for to be pyschopath. it'll be confuse thing. look into myself, there's good side, im healthy, i easily get support from many people. i don't know it's enough or not.. But now, i think i hate everything. it why i always try to finding my wrongdoing, how can i be scary person. my hatred -_-, my eyes can't see clearly, my ears can't listen well, disobedience. i don't care, who's gonna the guilty person? it must to be i am. sure, i am. there's always battle in my mind. it's difficult to solve this problem. me, -- . family, just good. friend, just good. home, desperate. alone? it's my wish but when you know live without comfort it's really really~ _-_ but when you get comfort it always there's breakdown. i took several people who i like for motivation, but not running perfectly. yes, i get happy. the conclution, UNSATISFACTORY. don't mind it, take revenge~